This is my first day in about 4 or 5 years without a job and I have to say, I like it. Granted, yes, my bank account has dwindled down and my credit card bills are growing by leaps and bounds – I have a safety net, and it may not be the best but I have it and with that in mind I’m trying to just live.
Today I figured I would start downsizing my stuff and went around my apt gathering things I don’t need, don’t want, and can live without. So far, lots of old toys, comics, and a few instruments. I did some research online and unfortunately the first few comics I grabbed aren’t worth much and I imagine my baseball cards aren’t going to bring me bags of money either. I am writing and getting some revenue from it, pennies a day but it’s a good start to creating a portfolio and will help me get better at writing. I haven’t done that in years and realized that I needed to start again to remember how to describe things to people who can’t see it, can’t imagine it, and need to get a good sense of what is going on. Describing instructions is not the same thing which I’ve spent many days doing in email and tickets, so this is good for me and makes me exercise my dormant creative mind.
I even tried writing a poem but that was a bust… I just sat there and then said “oh screw it, I’m gonna be a pole dancer.” Then I decided to play guitar for a few hours and made a short tiny iMovie to see what I looked like. I looked funny… not funny like a clown but funny like “Am I in pain?”
I have to say looking back at the last few months there are a handful of times I’ve been super happy -
1: Going to see They Might Be Giants
2: Going to see Kathy Griffin with Jen
3: Going upstate to see my college gang
4: Going to LI to meet my friend’s new dog
5: Today when I woke up and didn’t have work
In the afternoon I took a nap – I think it’s the side effects of the meds I’m taking and didn’t have a lot of motivation to do some rescue work but I did what I could. I feel really cloudy today and that might be because I was up till about 3am last night.
I went to visit a friend in NJ and on my way back I took a walk around Manhattan, then walked around Brooklyn, then stopped at my aunt’s place. Before I knew it – it was 1am. I went home and got to my front door, reached into my bag, and didn’t have my keys. So I walked all the way back to her place, got my keys and waited to see if any taxis were around. Most that passed had people in them so I walked back home. If I had known that I’d be putting an additional 2 miles onto my little feet, I may not have wandered so much on my way back from NJ.
I got home around 2am and didn’t settle in till about 3am and woke up today at 8am. So I think my hours are a little whacky right now.
Anyway, tonight I checked the mail and got some magnetic poetry from the ASPCA. Here’s my first creation:
